I bear it all..

1st week of May

2009-05-07T21:38:00.004+08:00

Entering the 1st week of May, everything was wonderful. My drowsy spell got better but I still feel slpy after 10pm now. 27 had expired and now I'm a young 28! Celebrated with a group of closer friends, not much of a party compared to last year. Pictures were uploaded in FB.

Some nice songs I've got these few days and these are some of my fave..

And I didn't know he could sing this well.. Love the lyrics..

Ella in wedding gown..

The lyrics is beautifully written..

Sleeping Disorder

2009-04-26T11:30:00.004+08:00

I have been complaining abt my weird hours slping disorder. For the past few mths, I slpt at 6am and woke up at 2-3pm. And caused me to be practically handicapped at work. Suffered from bad headaches and I couldn't focus at all. But for the past 7days, my body changes and find its way to another lvl of slping disorder, only this time, "healthier"! I'll get slpy at 8pm. Its kinda like a spell, it automatically shut down my system if I'm on a bed, couch or taking a transport. As long as I'm not doing anything. Usually, I'll wake up around 2am and I'll start my "morning" duties. And I iron my shirt, eat my breakfast before I leave house at 8.30am for work. I hope I can switch my body system to GMT +08:00 else I have to take a nap in the noon to hang out at night..

The only thing to look forward now at Sabai is the performance by the "97" woman and the regular faces on stage. Still not used to the new faces I guess. For the first time at Sabai, there was a police checked at 1-ish. And the operation was stopped for an hour, no ones get in or out of the place. Heard some thais got caught but I wasn't paying much attention to those.

And because I was on leave the a long while, I missed spending time with my furkids at work now.. My heart sink whenever I have to leave home in the morning..

Shrimp Fanatics

2009-04-25T06:16:00.006+08:00

Jacky called yesterday and told me abt a new batch of shrimps! And now they are part of my collections! Haha!

This is my new plant, a new playground for my shrimp babies!

Orange Delight Shrimp

The famous Crystal Red Shrimp (CRS)

My current fave and the most exp breed I have now, Cardinal Blue Shrimp

Name for Lee Baby

2009-04-17T01:02:00.001+08:00

Everything goes well today except for the fact that I was perfume-less for the whole day! Ironed my shirt in the morning, had breakfast and was early for meeting today. I felt great going to office for the first time in 2009! Things are starting to fall in place for me. I really hope so.

I was like a sponge today at the meeting. Learnt something, found something. And I got the news ONLY today that this week will be our last week at FujiXerox (YESHH!! Finally we are moving to Delfi Orchard)!!! Luckily my leave expired so I went for meeting. Else, I guess I will be at FujiXerox next week with shock! Cleared my locker and off to Funan to get a new speaker and stationaries.

Was chatting with Roxane online today and our topic was names for the baby, with the surname Lee. She started with Micah Lee (if u watch Heroes, Micah is Nikki's son) but then it sounds like "mai ka li" (sell curry)! So the rest of the names from Heroes were mentioned, like Claire Lee, Nathan Lee, Sylar Lee, etc.. Then she also suggested Kayden and Jayden, but JJ said it sounded like characters from Star Wars! So I went on with Carbon Lee, Hydro Lee and Oxygen Lee, Guanyu Lee etc.. She said I was a bad "namer"! And she wanted to name her daughter Love Lee.. The crappiness in me gushed out with Obvious Lee, Sudden Lee, Amazing Lee, Sor Lee, Slow Lee, Scar Lee, Chil Lee, etc! Haha.. I like Sudden Lee.. Very subtle and powerful leh! Even AK thinks that Sudden Lee is cool!

While I was typing my entry, someone told me a shocking news.. Things got out of hand and thou I keep complaining abt my work and boss, I never thought this would happen. I despise betrayer and I really felt disgusted by their act. It is like Internal Affair in JCO. Our very own JCO. No wonder boss looked so upset today. Some pple are smart and cruel, but these are the pple who are able to gain fame and wealth and go far. They will live long but will they be truly happy with life? Something to ponder about. I rather be contented and happy with life. I don't need a long yet lonely living. Think abt it.. Seriously.. THINK ABOUT IT...I pray for your well and forgiveness in His hands. You know.. never ever bite the hand that feeds!

Good Friday!

2009-04-10T08:10:00.003+08:00

Gooooooooooodddddd MMmmmmooooOOOOorrrRRnnnniiiinnnnnGGGGG 大家!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank God its GOOD FRIDAY!! 可是为何总觉得今天是 Thanks Giving 呢? 哈哈！一定是最近part-time 宅男太久，因此把日子搞乱了！

最近人看开了，也不想卷入 office politics 里。所以，office 少去了。现在都在家里打电话，准备client 文件然后 appointment 照样去。

All along 我都知道某某人"D"不喜欢我。就因为当时我confronted他对我好友 N 不规矩的行为。而 D 也不止一次的背叛了他的女友 F 。我就是看不顺眼，我就是不爽！因为我觉得 F 其实是位不错的女生，D 绝对不配！可是，爱情往往就是这样。不是配，就得在一起，也不一定白头谐老。

我也曾经有过和我很配的女生。她很迷人，很高，对我很体贴，偶尔很野蛮。就似 "我的野蛮女友" 一样。和她一起的日子是我最快乐的时光。当我们一起拍照，总有一种很甜蜜，很幸福的感觉。我们的爱情就像是流星，很美丽却短暂。就这样，转眼我们分手已3年半了。我也渐渐的把我们的回忆藏起。虽然 AK 和 CK 都时不时的介绍女孩给我，我都不感兴趣。可能还喜欢自由，不想被打扰吧。。。

Not dreaming eh?

2009-04-05T08:02:00.004+08:00

一开始的梦想
向往的自由
好像逼近了

Yaa-Baa-Daa-Baa-DOOOooooooooooo!!!!!!!

I am a happy Sylar.. So I won't be doing any damage for the moment!

Random

2009-04-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

A few books I would like to bring along. Like Anger, 25 ways to win with people, The 5 love languages and my all time fave, The slices of life. I'm scare of bordom and the journey will be a long one. Don't think I'll slp alot cos I think I had too much of slp for the past week!

Met AK at our usual place but I guessed we won't be gng back to Blujaz that much now. Didn't know she likes Timbre as much as I do. For her, the food is the main attraction but for me, I love the band. And I met my ex classmate there, who happened to be the guitarist for the popular band.

Jo and I are going to boycott Kbox cos the sound system is really bad. And also becos of the limited canto songs available. But still, we had fun duet-ing and repeating the songs like 4 or 5 times!

Miss Neo just didn't give up asking me out. Rejected her this noon cos I've been having a very unbearable headache. Then 5mins ago, she called again. This time for movie. I hardly reject pple for movie. Cos I love watching movies.. So, I lost the battle again. I'm going to change after this post. Yawn..

有的没的

2009-04-01T00:45:00.003+08:00

没有复杂的关系
复杂的是人

没有所谓难忘的感情
难忘其实是种选择

没有谁不能没有谁
不能没有的是空气

就这三个简单的逻辑
我把过去抹掉
我的生命不会再有她

逞强

2009-03-25T04:00:00.004+08:00

大声的笑闹
为了把你忘掉
扮演着另一个角色
连自己都觉得可笑

时间会知道
我对你的执着
爱到那么不像话
爱到这么的死心塌地

寂寞陪了我好久
我们变成好友
它说该放手了
它说别逗留了

付出过的感情该轮回
把沉默化为忏悔
成全自己的自由
我也不必再去逞强

Change! NEW! CHANGE!

2009-03-20T06:22:00.007+08:00

Been on medications these few days due to fever and running nose. Spent most of my time napping and walking around with a box of tissue at home. And I bought 2 fishes while waiting for my turn at the clinic.

Met Yam and friends on Monday and I have more lobangs for branded bags and accessories! Haha! And they are all so funny! I really believe that we always attract those who are like us. And they are exactly like Yam! Hmm.. That makes me one of them too! But too busy with talking. shopping and food that we didn't take any pics but soon I will cos we will be meeting SOON (Yam already sms-ed me so I can be available)!

It was jie's bday and we went for sushi and Ktv. As usual, work and family topics were never avoided in our conversation. The funny acts and sharing of the funniest moments in our life were exchanged all in that black room.

And yes, Potato and Meimei are still my love, my piority. Fino and my new aquarium pets are still well taken care of. Potato weighs 6.4kg and Meimei at 31kg as on 19th March 2009. Will continue to watch their diet thou I've been giving them treats whenever Potato give me that kelian look!

The truth..

2009-03-12T03:41:00.008+08:00

I miss.. her bed...

..and I know I'll be fine. I just take a longer time to heal..

Heroes!!

2009-03-11T02:55:00.004+08:00

Watched Heroes marathon on AXN on weekend and I simply love it! And just as I thought it ended on episode 13 (AXN played 13 episodes only) I found more online.. Woohoo.. another 5 episodes to go! Meaning... MORE of S-Y-L-A-R!!!! Haha.. And I found The 4400 season 4 on PPS too!!

Went Career Fair on weekend and sad to say, nothing much over there.. But crowd was at the JOBSTREET booth. And I realised there are alot of ppl who are jobless. And I shld be thankful for having a job. But I wanted more I guess. Not only talking abt salary.. I dunno if I will be happier this or that way.

Its been a lousy week (at work last week). Boss asked his direct team if anyone of us are intending to leave our job. I had a pte talk with him after the meeting. And he asked if I know what is going on and how am I doing. I think what he meant is how come sales have drop and all the shit abt pple around me. And inside me, I was laughing.. Cos I am allegy to bullshit (and it aint a joke). Ok, enough of work.

The water in the aquarium turned milky and I think it was caused by the floating plants. So I had it removed and it is starting to clear now. And I just counted that I have another 18-22 baby shrimps! Probably going to get more snails tmr.

Here are the pics taken for the past few days..

Re: Answer this... _

2009-03-04T03:20:00.003+08:00

1. Porkchop
2. Not exactly
3. 23rd Jan 2004 at Parco Bugis Junction lvl 2.
4. YES
5. Lamby
6. Heartache
7. Addictive.. very polite "thank you..see you..."
8. Definitely
9. Lotsa stuffs.. Levi's, ketchup egg, CSI, A walk to rem, my nike sneakers, babies, Jap food on Fri, Jejeia & Camie, FEP, the song Xin yu xin yuan, choc biscuit from amk, etc..
10. Happiness
11. Not too sure now..
12. 27 days ago
13. All the time
14. I don't think so..
15. Your generousity in forgiving

New members

2009-03-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

I bought another 15 mixture of Red Cherry Shrimps and Yellow Shrimps. And to my surprised, some of them are pregnant and u can really see the eggs. And I already have 6 baby shrimps swimming around. They are abt less than 1mm each.. I watched them for almost an hour b4 I spotted them dancing around. Haha.. My snails seemed to be escaping eh.. keep moving to the top and I keep pushing them down.. Wahaha.. Ok, time for pics again!

Before I put the new batch with my current, need to make sure the water temp are the same...

Finally in their new home erm.. I mean tank!

So many.. So happy..

Not very clear but the yellow thing are the eggs...

These are the species I have now.. Probably will add more new members when nicer colour shrimps arrive..

Horror Movie Marathon

2009-03-02T03:54:00.004+08:00

Our first movie marathon was held on sat. We had our dinner at almost 8pm and the movie started at 11pm till 6am. We watched Alone, 4bia and Ouija Board. Then another 2 movies in the morning. Got home ard 2pm and I K.O straight away. And before that, I checked on my new babies and now I'm left with 9 mini instead of 10! I suspected either 1 got eaten cos I forgot to feed them before I left home for meeting or Potato been prawning in the tank.. hmm.. I think I will get some fishes and more shrimps tmr else by weekend my tank will only left the 2 cj7 look alike plants..

Meimei lost 3kg cos she was sick the past few days and now I am giving her lesser food and treats to get her on diet. But she still measure at 36-36-36. Her waistline is 3x Potato's. And I notice Potato also getting heavier.. Haha! 1 eat lesser, the other eat more..

I'm wondering if I'll get to have O'Brien Sandwich for lunch tmr.. Hmm... Gotto slp now else won't be able to wake up early tmr!

Our new pet!

2009-03-02T02:41:00.000+08:00

CJ7?!?!

The initial set up

The filter

The 10 shrimps and 7 water snails..Fighting for food..

Bed Supper Club!

2009-02-06T22:54:00.019+08:00

Our flag.. to mark our territory!

Getting started

Our BBQ pit(s)

Server/Cook of the night..

Best Smile Award

With Wilson

Cherish said she like my vest..

The sparstic 2..

Aileen prohibited Weijin from getting close to anyone, so she could only take pic of Weijin's back at a distance!

She said I am a sheep in wolf skin. Then after a min, she changed her mind, she said I am a sheep in pork skin.. -_-

The birthday cake. Thanks to Cherish!

Make a wish.. "I want to be top AM in Prudential and achieve TOT.." But hor.. I secretly make a wish too (my hands in the pic loh).. "to have good health and to be happy.." WORLD PEACE!

The cake is mine..ALL MINE!!!!! RAAaaaaRRRrrrrrrrrr....

Chiong arhhhhh..

Aileen and Weijin

Learning hiphop dance and martial arts.. Hmm.. Kungfu Dance?!!

We took a few group pictures, but this is one of the nicer one! Wahaha..

New Song by 方炯鑌(阿鑌)

2009-01-30T03:17:00.008+08:00

I saw him in Kang Xi Lai le and I think good singer shouldn't be left unknown..

And not forgetting my fave Linda is also in the MV! Haha..

Here is another of my favourite..

And I found out I have this is my playlist but I didn't really pay much attention to it till I looked at the lyrics..

想得起那時那天和你傻笑著認識是最幸福的事...

CNY 2009

2009-01-29T01:55:00.021+08:00

So basically this is what I've been doing for the past few days. Went out with Aileen and gfs for KTV. And we really sing like nobody business. 1st day of CNY was at home the whole day with pple visiting us. Then the following is on the 2nd day!

This is my "hum supp" Potato trying to get Dar dar down from me!

And this is Mr Sad Face, Dar dar! He is really a very sweet maltese! And I wanna kidnap him!

Jesiree patting Dar dar to sleep. She is excited about getting a dog.

Potato at grandma's place. The kids are trying to bring him for a walk.

We grew up in the same kampong! Wilson and our "Lier Lier"!

With Felicia Aunt, who always brought us to Orchard on weekend when we were still a kid. A&W and Mac!

My grandma! I love her!

Huat arrrhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And later that night....

Me and Baobao at DF..

Always fun and crazy to have her around..

More cranky moments..

Another crazy friend, Serene!

What's in store for me in 2009?

2009-01-17T03:42:00.003+08:00

I begin my 2009 journey with my trip to Japan. It was fun I guess but it didn't exactly meet up to my expectation I must say. But overall experience was good. Apart from some unpleasant moments.. Still, I believe certain things in life happened for a reason (thou not all). I kinda missed the weather there cos I can just walk around without feeling sticky and uncomfortable (unlike in SG). And I love dressing up there cos you can't afford not to in wonderful Winter Japan. The pple there are extremely polite and friendly and till now I still behave as thou I am still in Japan, I bow to pple (pple here must think I'm crazy)!

Of cos, there are also things over there that are not as fantastic. Firstly, we had a hard time communicating with them thou there are certain places we can still find chinese. Secondly, it gets damn cold when the wind blows at u and esp at night, it can get pretty freezing. Thirdly, the things there are damn expensive. A simple plain bowl of ramen can cost u a freaking SGD$8!! A mac meal cost you SGD$10!! And lastly, most hotel room in Japan are relatively small. But the toilet seats in Japan is a plus point! And the toilets there are generally very clean. Oh, looking at the railway lines can take you some times to figure out too.. it is way too complicated! But smart me (ehem!!), managed to understand it! Haha..

I will definitely save up more this time to go Japan again! And it will be a 1-mth trip! There are still alot of places I wanna explore.

After the Japan trip (1st Jan - 10th Jan 09), I went to KL for my company AGM (12th Jan - 14th Jan 09). This is my 3rd AGM with JCO but my very first as a participant, not a committee member. I had fun and touching moments. Seeing JCO grew from a group of abt 60 till now we have 160. From our very own pledge to song and t-shirt. I am proud and happy to be where I am now thou I know if one day I were to leave, I'll regret and miss them all.

I need a big faith to take that little step forward. I need to overcome and another miracle. This is no ordinary step cos a wrong move could mean a different path ahead. Sit tight and fasten my seat belt, 2009 will be a better year for me..

The fight against the 'stirr-ers'

2008-11-28T23:10:00.005+08:00

Staying positive all the times
I am trying hard
Cast away all the fears
Cos they brings in negativities

Walk with pride
Always with a smile
Hide my fear
I'll be just fine

No more frowning
I'll just keep my mouth shut
Listening to my player
I ain't gossiping

Looking at you tables away
Give me the reason to stay focus
Waiting for you to smile at me
The courage to fight for you

I am still the guardian angel
And the battle goes on..
At the end of the day
You would heal my wounds..

When I have "Nothing"

2008-11-14T16:57:00.007+08:00

Have you ever wonder if you would be happier
when what you have now becomes NOTHING..

Have you realised that sometimes your assets
overnite becomes your liabilities?

Have you wonder why human beings
changes so frequently?

Have you wonder why she behave the way she do now
that send chill down your spine?

My friend say she can no longer see my smile anymore.
I asked myself why too..

Pple say changes are for better..
I agree.. and I have to accept..
The fact that changes are everywhere..
Every minute and every second..

But I am afraid of changes..
And then to stop my fear..
I run.. I hide..
So now..
Being alone doesn't scare me anymore..
Cos I no longer need to run..
nor do I need to hide..

But what hurt me most
is when I noticed the changes in you..
Thats when I realised that you may no longer need my presence
nor my love..
My love have a change of heart..

I know better things are awaiting for me
If I just keep on walking.. keep on breathing..
Thats why..
I think I will see the light at the end of my tunnel..

My angel will be there I'm sure..
And the sad angel of mine will be smiling again..

But what would you do when all you wanna do is be the same guardian angel for her and hoping she will still be the same angel that heal?...

Managing Dual

2008-10-30T05:11:00.003+08:00

By day..
Smart dressed Financial consultant with a bright personailty..

At night..
A lost addicted alcoholic, a useless insomianic!

MIA

2008-10-27T13:55:00.007+08:00

I was happily indulging on being alone these while..

Being alone gave me time to reflect on the things I've done for the past few months.

I swam alone..

The best remedy to get over hiccups in life.. The only time I get to sort out my thoughts without drowning in my sorrows..

I read at night..

To bring me to another part of the world.. Fantasy or not.. Probably get some sales ideas too!

I jogged with Scooby Doo and Potato Doo..

To have some really good time with them while making them tired so they don't get to disturb me when I work mostly at night..

I watched horror movies at home..

To frighten myself so I get to cover myself from head to toe and making sure I knocked out soon after the blanket's over my head! Remedy for insomia??

I eat alone..

With just myself doesn't make me feel lonely..I get to eat whatever I like without getting interupted by external factor..

Life with me. myself and I doesn't sound that bad afterall..

But in the midst of all these..

...I still think about you..

潘嘉丽 - 一秒钟的永远

2008-09-27T05:56:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DANM_o505pY

每個人的心中都有一個小的夢
像蜻蜓點在微微漣漪水中
漣漪往往只會泛起短短一秒鐘
卻讓人懷念的好久好久

在我們的愛情中總是太多風波
忘記它才能安然度過

釋懷后的擁抱雖短感動卻很久
就在愛情離開了我那么久以后
我還清晰記得在你懷中豐富感受
只一秒鐘卻永遠了
雖然許多愛的可能在門外經過
為什么我還深鎖自己無動于衷
是一秒鐘的天長地久深深包圍我
只一秒鐘卻成為了永遠

每個人的心中都有一個小的夢
像蜻蜓點在微微漣漪水中
漣漪往往只會泛起短短一秒鐘
卻讓人懷念的好久好久

在我們的愛情中總是太多風波
忘記它才能安然度過

釋懷后的擁抱雖短感動卻很久
就在愛情離開了我那么久以后
我還清晰記得在你懷中豐富感受
只一秒鐘卻永遠了
雖然許多愛的可能在門外經過
為什么我還深鎖自己無動于衷
是一秒鐘的天長地久深深包圍我
只一秒鐘卻成為了永遠

Life without my precious..

2008-08-17T13:03:00.003+08:00

She have been away for the 7th days.. I miss her more than ever. I've never felt this quiet and lonely for the longest time since she came into my life 2yrs ago.. It not surprising for me to feel this way cos she she had always been there for me. Whenever I'm down.. happy.. sad.. alone.. and I remember we've always travel together... I know she will be back tonight and my mom will fetch her back from the Cyber Hospital. I hope the technician have helped me to back up all the data in her.. I missed my Lappy HP..

Before you close the door...

2008-08-06T02:38:00.002+08:00

I am just a human being..
Nothing more..
Nothing less..

I've made mistakes..
I quit being alcoholic..

I am humbled in your presences..

I am yours..

If only you will take me..

I'm leaving on a SQ Jetplane!

2008-07-03T16:59:00.002+08:00

After a month of hard work, I finally achieve my first goal in JCO ever since I first started in this biz. And for the first time, I have a total break thru in my career. My June production was what I had done for the whole of 2007. Gosh.. I think I had wasted my past 2 yrs of life. I could have earn more than what I have now. But I still believe everything happen for a reason. 26th of June 2008 was my 2nd year with JCO and achieving this MYC-Taipei is the most memorable gift I pledged for myself. I bet my parents must be proud of me too!

There are a few of people I would like to thank and show my appreciations to. For w/o their constant reminders, cares and guidances, I would have given up long ago. And of cos those who have given me a chance to show them how I can help them achieve their financial freedom, thank you too for you guys have contributed to my glory achievement. I will continue to work hard and share my achievements with all along the way.

I will be leaving for Taipei on the 13th June and back on the 17th June. Potato will be going on a holiday too! Scooby will be home looking after the house and Little Fino while I am away. My next goal will be what I had pledged for at the beginning of 2008, my QC. I wanna shorten my time and hope to achieve it in Sept instead of Dec. So I can enjoy myself when X'mas comes. Osaka challenge will be by the way mini goal. Can I do what I have done in June? Hopefully! =)

Quiz

2008-06-06T22:42:00.007+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Physical Touch:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

The Rose..

2008-06-04T05:04:00.003+08:00

My all time favourite besides Heaven Knows..

The one that I like personally.. just listen to this voice.. not the mv..

The 2nd version from Westlife..

My sins slowly eaten up..

2008-05-29T02:49:00.004+08:00

What I had..
Slowly fading away..
What I used to loved..
Slowly I feel it begins to numb..

I realized I could no longer feel anything for anyone..
I realized I couldn't be bothered with things..
I've slowly mutating..
Into another creature yet known..

I know I'll be fine..
I know I'll be alright..
Maybe it does make a different if you're here with me..
All alone in my journey of life..
Without you..

Arrhhh..
Its pathetic..
But I guess again..
This is life..
I still need air to breathe..
I wish I could have you..
To share it with you..
It unbelievable..
But truth hurt somehow..
And the truth is ..
I still love you..
Somehow..
I'm sure you feel it too..
But does it hurt you too?

I wished I had the courage to tell you..
Yet all I do is blog..
And all you found out abt me is thru blogging..
I miss you... miss your words.. miss your voice..
I miss your hugs.. miss your love..
I miss you...
Don't you realise it at all?

But is there anything I could do?
A drunken self..
A broken soul..
An empty shell yet to know..
All I do..
Is loving what I'm left with..
The broken memories..
That haunt me...
A shatter heart..
That needs your healing..
Your love is still the greatest of all..
I still do..
Remember? Its time to be back..
This time.. I will be.. Good....

Random thots..

2008-05-24T02:59:00.003+08:00

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes... your destiny..

"Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle."

I read this...

2008-04-12T04:44:00.005+08:00

I no longer wake up with the picture u used to draw.
I no longer wake up with u by my side.
I no longer wake up with my tv on.
I no longer wake up with the ketchap sunny side up on my table.
I no longer wake up by the the sound of your voice.
I no longer hear you calling me baby..
Thou all these you no longer do..
I still yearn to be with you..
I still love.. still..
And this.. I call it.. forever..

A long wait..

2008-03-01T02:28:00.003+08:00

Hey hey, Finn is back! My previous modem had to retire due to old age so I had got a new "blackie" to replace "greyish". Lots of things to blog about, especially after my BKK trip with Bao Bao. Finally managed to find the cable to upload our photos.

I know alot of my friends have been asking about me and how am I doing lately. Sorry to keep missing and not being able to catch up with my homie. I've been tired.. Seemed like my time are even shorter after I came back from BKK. But honestly, I had a great rest and some fun time with Bao Bao. All the shoppings, bargaining and makaning. Thank you Bao Bao, you have been very cooperative. Know you tried your best to put on your best smile when we were at BKK. So worried you might just break down there.. cos I really would not know how to deal with a crying woman. Bao Bao, stay strong and chippy okie?

Then it was Mr J's big day. Me and Gene bought a Levi's watch, black frame with gold button. I think is the latest edition, cos I've never seen that model before. We had a good time at Beach bar, drinking, smoking and laughing our time away. Gene looks better now, with her new haircut. Mr J seemed to slim down abit too..

And I am proud of Eugene too. He picked himself up after the painful fall. Know its not easy but you did it. Yes, nobody say it is going to be easy on you. No one say it will not hurt. No one say the heart will not change. No one promise that there will not be sunshine after the rain. Remember, tough time won't last but tough pple do!

My bun bun, glad to know you're leading a very dynamic life now. Happy and satisfied. But don't overdo it okie? Love you.. ALWAYS! Keke..

Feb is finally over. A tough fight. A good race. I will persevere.. Just wait and see..

Just a thought..

2008-01-13T02:40:00.000+08:00

Have you ever woke up feeling lost and in pain?
I do..
And thats the only way to stay alive..
The nearest to Heaven..
Is to think of you..
A feel of Heaven?
When I'm with you..
Lost track of it?
When I'm without you..
Does all these make any sense?
Nope..
They are just my rubbish thoughts..
But how come I've felt so close to Heaven?
So.. its true? That you can make me feel Heaven afterall?
Ha.. Its insane!

Rest In Peace, MC King..

2008-01-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

He wasn't someone I like at first
He was someone I remember with the irritating laughters.
That was my impression of him when I saw him on TV
I was probably 8 or 9 yrs old then.

When I woke up with that msg by Karen
I thought I was still in my dream
Then I thought it was a joke.
But I still didn't want to accept that fact that he is gone.
I asked around and I saw the news the next day.

He was always smiling and we always gossip at a corner while taking a break
I began to take liking in this guy
We worked together at my last project
Even after I left MCS
I occasionally get surprise msges here and there
A very caring and thoughtful guy
Someone whom will always be there if u needed help

I met up with my ex colleagues to pay my last respect to him
There are alot of pple..Familiar faces everywhere
Reporters.. and also pple who just want to be kapo
Still I couldn't believe he is gone

I lost 2 friends in a month
Its heart aching to see ur friends leaving one by one
Even those whom wasn't that close to you
I am not afraid of leaving one day
What I fear most is not being able to say out what I feel
To my friends, how much I appreciate them and having them around me
To someone I love, how much I love them and want them to be happy
To my parents and sister and relatives, how lucky I am to be part of the Teng family
And of cos, I fear of not leaving a sum of money for my parents for them to enjoy their retirement.
And worst of all, leaving any debts behind..

Life is fragile.. it really is..
Have you tell someone you love them today?
What if they never be able to hear that tmr?

Redate..X'mas

2008-01-02T10:39:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the late updates, my modem took leave for the festival seasons so I am w/o any access for days. No facebook, no emails, no update on my work, no msn, no friendster, no pps and worst of all, no DotA.. =(

X'mas & New Yr countdown 2007 was special, fun and loved. Surrounding me were laughters and happy memories. Things were special and I had an unexpected surprise which I believe that the year 2008 will be a good for me. Feeling lucky and bliss.. I luf you all!

Makan at Sinma, Geylang and Ktv at PartyWorld, Shenton Way.

Presents from Pawfect Family..

X'mas Eve dinner at Oscar, Conrad.

We got this 5th Yr Limited Edition Porter Bag for him!

For my beloved Eugene and Baobao.. Glad that they like it!

My X'mas pressie from my loved ones..

Potluck with buddy and friends on Boxing day!

Thank you.. =)

Pre-X'mas Celebration

2007-12-22T03:52:00.000+08:00

Sweet talk had this as her new hp wallpaper.. To 避邪 I guess!

Gillian and us

Got this for gift exchange! Thanks Chris!

X'mas pressie from Sweet talk, to shut my mouth from complaining my frequent shoulder and neck aching!

Look at what my boi is up to..

Still trying to pull it off my bed..

Trying to act cool with my monkey!

Will be off to do my shopping later.. I have it all listed out on a piece of paper. And for the first time, I actually planned out the gifts with the prices and places to get besides their names.. Need to wake up real early later to get all done b4 4pm so I can make it to Pawfect later b4 proceeding on to the chalet...

Gift xchange..

2007-12-21T03:45:00.000+08:00

For her.. Yam Yam!! From Make Up Store.. Lip Gloss, mascara and Glitter powder! Love the gift box and the packaging.. Its really worth the value!!

What she gave me..

The close-up of my pressie!!

Beauty and the Beast(s)!!!

Stombeh us..

He insisted me to post up this photo cos he looks good.. =p

Thank you for making me luff when I feel grey...
[Eileen + Yam = Bimbo]
[Eileen + Eugene = Sarcastic pair]
[Eugene + Yam = Make-up freaks]
[Me + Eileen = Listening ears and dog lovers]
[Me + Eugene = Straight Couple = Eileen Jealous]
[Me + Yam = Chatterbox]

My Wed..

2007-12-21T03:25:00.000+08:00

Not ur bday, Shawn!!

The bday boy, Kailun

James acting cute

Gel and our bday boy.. Gel = drunk!

Me and sweet talk.. And I was almost gone by then..

Me with the girls..

With Mama and Big Head..

The rest needless to say.. The party went on well with lotsa booze but no worries, except for Gel, the rest were all well behaved. Only silly me sent silly smses to her in HK.. But the lucky thing is I am still able to search for the number when I don't remember bathing and switching on my laptop when I got home.. Hmm...

New look for X'mas...

2007-12-19T02:01:00.000+08:00

This is what I am gng to do.. tie a ribbon around my neck and...

A pleasant surprise! Thanks for the tie!

By looking at the 2 photos.. I think I gained another 5kg!! Darn! Seemed like no steamboat and no alcohol for 2 weeks didn't help at all.. WTH... Eh.. probably is the camera angle hor.. Keke.. Ya.. I think too much lah.. *self denier*

All I want for x'mas + New Year Resolutions.... (May or maynot be Wishful edition)

2007-12-18T02:24:00.000+08:00

1. A new haircut

2. Lose 10kg

3. Revamp my room

4. Timberland Boots

5. HP TouchSmart PC

6. Accomplish all I have planned for the yr 2008

7. Jay and Justin's new album

8. A dinner date with her

9. Working attire from Raoul, Crocodile and Paul Smith

10. To have a healthy lifestyle (Sleep earlier, smoke lesser, reduce alcohol, less munchies, more exercise)

11. Fossil Watch

12. A trip to Night Safari

13. Gucci Belt

14. Braun Buffel Wallet

15. NUM top

Updates..

2007-12-17T23:35:00.001+08:00

KK passed away on Fri. Huina was the 1st to let me know. She was crying on the phone saying it happened to sudden. But seriously, I was kinda happy for him cos it means he do not have to suffer any more. And of cos I am sad abt his sudden depart. We had planned to have another gathering after the last meet up in April but due to his condition, he was unable to meet us.. And that was our last gathering.. I rem him as someone bubbly and always having that smile with him. Sometime silly but always positive abt things ard him. Most of us were at the wake today, and he had left a letter and done up some photos to be placed at the wake. Then I was wondering, will I have so many friends when I'm gone...

Went to help out at MCS yesterday and I brought Miss Neo along cos she said she is bored at home.. Managed to sneak her in w/o any trouble.. Nothing much to talk abt.. just some photos to share..

The top 10 most popular female artiste

I know I looked silly.. but I was nervous to see my beauty.. Oops.. RuiEn.. And I dreamt of her last night.. Keke.. Silly me.. silly..

Me and my sweetest Felicia Chin..

Finally!! And I am happy for you!! Congrats!! Yvonne Lim

And not forgetting my boss.. The Queen! Zoe Tay

Mr Charming(s).. Wahaha!!! Elvin Ng

With cutie Dawn Yeo.. She's like a wild cat.. Meow!

Fatal Attraction..

2007-12-17T04:19:00.000+08:00

I didn't know you're Aquarius too...

1st X'mas Present

2007-12-11T18:20:00.001+08:00

Thank you very much. Very nice

My weekend..

2007-12-11T18:15:00.000+08:00

可惜不是你

2007-12-08T02:22:00.000+08:00

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

For u whom i regard you as my FRIEND

2007-12-07T13:18:00.000+08:00

You don't have the right to judge me
Who are you to say I disappoint you
In which way may I ask
It may be just one incident that make u say that
Just ONE stupid incident..
And I agreed that I didn't handle the situation well
But I am disappointed in you too
As a PERSON, my so call FRIEND!
I apologized and I told you that I couldn't make that commitment now
I told u I have my difficulties
I don't want to end up with nothing
I don't want to lose everything I've built over here
When I have no confident to soar over your side
You say you want no reason
Your sarcasms pierce thru my heart
I feel hurt more than the anger that a bull should rage
My so call FRIEND
If you insist on your point and mix work and personal together
I don't think this is right
You shouldn't condemn what I am good at now
To win me over to your side
Your last msg for me
Have once proven what I am in your heart
A tool that you can make use of only..
Maybe its YOU who should be thinking of your future
Do not, I repeat.. DO NOT JUDGE ME!
Truly disappointing..

A long wait...

2007-12-03T02:25:00.000+08:00

My friends thot I went MIA again, cos they couldn't get me on my phone. I was sick for almost a week. Fever, throat infection and cough. I lost my voice for 2 days and so I lost 3 days of my sales. I postpone my appts and I felt bad about it. And I thanks those constant smses and msges in my msn, asking abt my conditions. I'm recovering well, but still abit coughing here and there.

Finally went to Play.. but we queued for about an hour b4 we got in. I didn't really enjoy as much as I thot I would. Probably I was tired after a long walk, probably the medication was taking effect on me..or am I getting old? Hmm...

Go easy...

2007-11-22T03:14:00.000+08:00

I realised after so much fun last week and back to work now, I am FINALLY feeling TIRED.. But there is still one thing that bothers me.. I still can't slp early! I can slp when I take a train or bus but never once when I get home.. Too much distractions around. My lovely furkids, my lapie, dotA, msn, cable tv, my phone... the list can go on... Maybe I shld try L's method, shut myself off and live like a primitive.

Looking forward to x'mas.. la la la.. my favourite holiday and I can never go easy on this occassion.. Many plans are made these few days and I really shld think about all that was said. Tried something new in life this week. Happy and contented. After all the calculations and meetings, action will come next. So.. wish me luck!

Quote of the day: The most beautiful words are those left unsaid.. but u can hear it clearly if ur heart try hard enough to feel it.

The Conversation

2007-11-21T05:02:00.000+08:00

P: I so like Lin Jia Xin.. she is so sweet looking.. my kind of girl.. watch the movie together? *grin*

L: You got Lin Jia Min already.. No need to watch Lin Jia Xin!

P: ........

Last lap...Ruuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!

2007-11-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

My holidays are over.. now is the time to get back to work. I am looking forward to get busy where I could just knock out once I see my bed.. All charged up and now ready for my last sprint.. Thanks to Eugene and Eileen for the wonderful week.. I haven't been so happy for quite a while.. not that I wasn't happy.. its like when I could just get noisy and irritate u guys with my singing.. its kinda enjoyment for me.. wahaha.. 有一种小小的幸福。Eugene, I'm gng to PK with you again once you're out from your camp! Keke.. Miss Neo, you will be our judge again? No more nonsense for me till end of the year.. I will end this year well so I will have a good start next year.. And dearest Sinfool, you always dun call me when you're back and when you do, its always at the wrong timing.. And when I call you, either your phone is off or you just don't pick up.. Maybe you should just keep to your mails.. occassionally, send me a postcard and throw your stupid phone away!! Wahaha.. okie, just kidding, don't sulk okie.. Buy me a LV wallet when get to Europe! Keke.. No fake goods there hor.. Thank you in adv for my x'mas pressie..

I was surfing my usual web again and I want to share this piece of article.. esp to those who has quitting as a habit..

Stories - The Fern and the Bamboo
Original Story by Eric Garner

There was once a man who got so sick of life, he quit his job, severed all relationship ties and headed into the woods for one last reflection.

There he saw a meditating wise man and told him why he was there.

"Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" the man asked.

The wise man responded to his question with another question, "Look around… Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", the man replied.

The wise man continued, "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

On the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

On the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit. On the fourth year, yet again nothing came out from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit.

Then on the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was small and insignificant. But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the last four years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

All this time that you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. The growth of the bamboo was no magic. Yet it towers above the fern in the end. Don't compare yourself to others.

The bamboo has a different purpose from the fern. But together they both make the forest beautiful.

The wise man then looked pointedly at the man and said, "Your time will come. Take your roots and you shall rise high just like the bamboo."

围墙

2007-11-14T04:08:00.000+08:00

不知不觉又过了几天
我想我习惯了忽略
去忽略没你的时间

不近不远走在谁身边
我想我适应了一切
这一切没你的时间

某条路某条街
某首歌某间店
某种熟悉但如今却刺眼
不碰触不跨越为
自己留一些安全界线

谁都以为不听不看也就没感觉
一转身才发现空气里面依旧飘散着记忆的气味
谁有所谓或无所谓也不能改变
原来是我在爱上你的那瞬间就困在围墙里面
多可悲围墙都在对不对

Picture paints a thousand words..

2007-11-14T03:45:00.000+08:00

Baby & I had our new haircut.. but not same groomer nor the same pair of scissor!!

Back blogging..

2007-11-05T02:28:00.000+08:00

I had an incredible weekends.. Met up with Eileen, Diana and Val for dinner at V8 on fri and I was supposed to go to the birthday after that but I didn't cos JC couldn't make it on time and I didn't wanna be alone.. Sorry sweet, JC and me will make it up to you. Roxane was supposed to meet me after work so I brought her bday pressie along but I guessed she was too tired to come too.. We ended up taking neoprints b4 I went to meet my ST to HUSH.

Someone thot I was gng to propose.. But to who..??

I think Roxane will like this..

I met up with my boys in town on Sat for shopping then dinner at Paris.. Eileen msged me after my dinner so I called her and told her my plan.. We went to acoustic that night and ST came after work.. It was quite packed that night so we didn't have alot of singing but its funny how my friends get along well.. Eileen said she had fun and she feel safe with us.. No worries, you're not alone.. Cos you were there when I was in deep shit.. wahaha..

I was supposed to go JB today but I had food poisoning and I woke up serveral times since 5am.. I was too weak and tired to do anything.. It finally stop after my 7th trip and after I took medications.. It shouldn't be the food we ate at Paris cos my boys were fine.. Hmm.. could it be the birthday cake??

Fun moments being captured..

2007-11-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

NoiSeOLoGy is back in SG!!

2007-11-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

Havent't been updating my blog cos I am having some major changes in life. Been busy with all the changes made and it is still processing on.. I'm not sure if I will still have all the energy and time cos by the time I got home, I feel like lying flat on my bed. I get tired easily now esp btw 9-10pm, I already feel drowsy. Maybe I really needed a REST..

Its funny that pple around me are thinking of quiting.. not in term of leaving their work.. Pple around me are thinking of QUIT drinking and QUIT ktv.. How come no one think of QUIT rejecting getting policy from me or QUIT gossiping? Hmm..

I haven't got anything for the birthday girl.. Not sure of what I shld get for her cos its her 21st birthday, dun wanna get just anything.. hmm.. But then again, I dun rem getting any present from her this yr.. Hmm..

Look at my title.. Yep, Nel is back.. Talking to him now on msn, telling me abt his bad working experience here and then finally settling down on this sound engineering job.. Will arrange for a dinner soon (most probably next week)!

My furkids seriously need to bathe and send for grooming soon.. Who wanna help me....

Random

2007-10-28T01:34:00.000+08:00

I rather not think of you who is heartless..
I rather put it in a way that you have just lost your way..
I know you will never be back..
I know I am just a passerby.

But I don't understand why.
I need to find out the reason behind every fall.
I need to search for my belief in love again.
Where did my love go?

You're my sweetest sin..
Someone's painful memories..

Cafe Freak

2007-10-25T16:58:00.000+08:00

I think now my job is not only to seek for sales but also to search for new cafe that allow me to work outdoor with my lapie and free internet access. I've found 2 nice places.. 1 is the one I went to yesterday at Pagoda Street, highly recommended by my colleagues and the other at Telok Kurau.. I love the ambience here, and maybe becos this is where I used to work, I find it safe here. A place where I don't find fear haunting me or tear resurfing. I know if I needed to cry, they won't laugh at me nor pity me, but I know each time I cry, I become stronger. Afterall, they have seen the worst, this is the place I can scream, I can shout, I can laugh, I can dream without fear of being mock at. Cos they understand.. I know they do..

The cafe I went to yesterday is not bad too. Its quiet and feel like home. There's free internet access too with good and cheap food & drinks. The calamaries are made FRESH (yep, not frozen)!! They have different kinda fusion teas and best of all, can refill hot water (okie, I know abit cheapskate..)!

There is a need to escape.. to do something wild and madness.. To make me feel alive and the need to break free.. The need to enjoy life and have fun.. Cos life is fragile.. Learn to respect and treasure.

A new begining..

2007-10-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

Been months since I last blog. I've decided to leave the old blog aside and start on this new one. Memories started coming back to me recently, it is still too much for me to bear.. Thank you for all those who have stood by me all these time when I was lost and feeling fragile. Some even call me to check on me.. I feel bless with all you guys around.

Been busy with work and catching up with friends that I've lost touch with. I've met some new one like Eugene and Yam. They have been wonderful.

Things are starting to fall in place for me and I am glad that hard work are finally paying off. I will continue to put in more effort and less laziness in this biz.. Okie all, JIA YOU! =)

I bear it all..

1st week of May

Sleeping Disorder

Shrimp Fanatics

Name for Lee Baby

Good Friday!

Not dreaming eh?

Random

有的没的

逞强

Change! NEW! CHANGE!

The truth..

Heroes!!

Re: Answer this... *_*

New members

Horror Movie Marathon

Our new pet!

Bed Supper Club!

New Song by 方炯鑌(阿鑌)

CNY 2009

What's in store for me in 2009?

The fight against the 'stirr-ers'

When I have "Nothing"

Managing Dual

MIA

潘嘉丽 - 一秒钟的永远

Life without my precious..

Before you close the door...

I'm leaving on a SQ Jetplane!

Quiz

The Five Love Languages

Complete set of results

Information

The Rose..

My sins slowly eaten up..

Random thots..

I read this...

A long wait..

Just a thought..

Rest In Peace, MC King..

Redate..X'mas

Pre-X'mas Celebration

Gift xchange..

My Wed..

New look for X'mas...

All I want for x'mas + New Year Resolutions.... (May or maynot be Wishful edition)

Updates..

Fatal Attraction..

1st X'mas Present

My weekend..

可惜不是你

For u whom i regard you as my FRIEND

A long wait...

Go easy...

The Conversation

Last lap...Ruuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!

围墙

Picture paints a thousand words..

Back blogging..

Fun moments being captured..

NoiSeOLoGy is back in SG!!

Random

Cafe Freak

A new begining..

Re: Answer this... _